Saturday, December 19, 2009

The first 6 weeks with our baby...

The “newness” starts fading and the work begins…. But in all honesty it’s actually getting much easier now. I can’t believe it’s already been 6 weeks… I keep thinking of it in terms of pregnancy, so that’s like going from 31 weeks to 37 weeks when I had him and that is crazy! How is it going so fast? I’m sure it is going quickly due to the lack of sleep and trying to learn this new thing called parenthood with new issues to learn every day. It seems like a new issue pops up each week, first it was gas problems and formula switches, then we moved on to vomiting and reflux, next week was colic… and so we stumble along bleary eyed searching for the instruction manual ha!

With each issue you’re forced to adapt, your routine gets a little skewed and the more this happens you kind of get used to a constant flux of mini chaos. So when the next issue comes along it’s easier to deal with than before. It reminds me of the end of pregnancy where you finally have adapted to all of the aches and pain, you forget what it’s like to be back to “normal” and it’s the same with the baby and sleepless nights. We’ve gotten used to the lack of sleep and our bodies are now ok with functioning on a couple of hours of sleep so we aren’t so exhausted all the time. Don’t get me wrong, some days are worse than others, but overall it really is getting easier, we’re adjusting.

The stress, worry, and paranoia about a brand new baby are wearing off and we’re loosening up. We’ve stopped recording and charting his feedings and dirty diapers. We aren’t taking his temperature every hour to make sure he’s not too cold. We aren’t sterilizing bottles every single time he eats. And we’ve given in to using tap water instead of bottled for his formula. Now we have more time to enjoy our awesome little man and not stress about every little thing.

Holden is getting so big already. He’s gained about 3 pounds from his birth weight holy cow! Every time I pick him up I can’t believe how heavy he is. I stare at him while he’s eating and can’t believe how much his face is changing, he’s got some chubby cheeks and a double chin now. His eyes are getting more and more blue every day. He’s starting to smile at us now and he’s awake a lot more during the day. He can pretty much roll himself over if you aren’t watching and he holds his head up like a big boy now. He’s outgrown his premie clothes and is almost too big for the newborn ones. He’s almost in a size 1 diaper… gosh it is really crazy how fast they grow.
The time flying by is an odd concept. You are truly in survival mode with a new baby. You keep clinging to the things everyone says “it gets easier, I promise” or “by 2-3 months it will get better” or “those first 6 weeks are rough but then it’s better” so you keep thinking please just let us get to 12 weeks. You want to hurry up and get there! Then you turn around and it’s been 6 weeks, my little baby has gained 3 lbs since birth, he’s looking so different every single day and you stop and go WAIT… I don’t want to hurry up I want to slow back down. It’s a very odd concept… you desperately want it to be easier, you desperately want your sleep back but yet you don’t want your baby to change, you don’t want them to get bigger. It’s a double edged sword.

So instead of rushing along I am making a point to enjoy every single day no matter how tired, how frustrated. I will cherish every single waking moment with my son while he is so little…. And take it from me it is FLYING by already. I keep hearing songs and the words ring in my ears daily..

You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These Are Some Good Times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

Don't blink, just like that you're six years old and you take a nap and you
Wake up and you're twenty-five and your high school sweetheart becomes your wife.
Don't blink, you just might miss your babies growing like mine did
Turning into moms and dads next thing you know your "better half"
Of fifty years is there in bed. And you're praying God takes you instead
Trust me friend a hundred years goes faster than you think. So don't blink

So true… a hundred years is coming like a freight train and I want to freeze this moment in time, soak it all in, milk it for all it’s worth.

Other than freaking out about how quickly this is going I am back to enjoying my little dude! I feel like my normal self, thankfully, the Postpartum Depression is an ugly beast in my rear view mirror. All of our daily tasks are getting easier. Going out with the boy is almost like second nature now it’s much easier than before! My husband has been amazing and I don’t know what I’d do without him. Just last night he took Holden out of my arms while I was feeding him at dinner time and said “give him to me, you need to eat” I insisted it was fine and that he could eat first and he said “NO! You’ve had him all day long, you haven’t had any time to yourself, give him to me and I’ll feed him so you can eat dinner.” I can’t tell you how much of a relief it is when he does things like that, I am so lucky…. really lucky. The dogs are also doing a lot better, Kane hasn’t had any outbursts lately. And what else… I have my pre-pregnancy body back, I’ve even lost 10 lbs more than I was before getting pregnant. Now it’s just time to tone the abs back up… ugh… I know everyone is curious what your body looks like post partum so I’ll indulge you all with a couple of pictures. A little bit of work still to do but not too shabby I guess. I am wondering when my linea nigra is going to go away though…

And that’s the update… 6 weeks down… wow!


I'm Just Sayin' - Kerri said...

ha, umm my post baby body looks NOTHING like that - I'd kill for what you look like.

BM said...

Your son is so cute!!

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