Friday, October 23, 2009
Wow… 35 weeks huh… I look back now and it brings tears to my eyes to think about how we got here... I mean the LONG look back. I remember the first time I met my future husband, I remember what he was wearing and the conversation we had. I still laugh at how shy he was while we were dating and how I almost had to force him into our first kiss. Introducing him to my family and meeting his for the first time… and the first words out of everyone’s mouths was always “you guys will have some beautiful children”… I remember the look on his face when he bent down on one knee and asked me to marry him. He held the ring box upside down and was shaking and I almost collapsed with happiness. Then came the wedding and I’ve never been so excited to see him in my life. As I turned the corner in my wedding dress with my Dad I saw the most amazing man standing at the end of the aisle… there was my future… standing down there waiting for me. We were completely lost in each other the whole night. I remember our honeymoon, it was true bliss, we were like little kids in a candy shop. I’ll never forget the smile on his face while we rode a Harley to all of the beaches and ate bologna sandwiches overlooking the island. I remember the night we decided we were ready to start a family and laughing together about the fact that we actually just made this decision. I can remember the look in his eyes every month of trying to conceive that we were unsuccessful, there was always hope and strength in those eyes which I leaned on greatly month after month. And then I got the positive pregnancy test, I could barely contain my excitement but I wanted to make it special for the love of my life. I came up with an elaborate plan to tell him. I had to look away while he opened the gifts that would tell him he was going to be a daddy... He looked up at me and whispered “no way!” and both of us burst into tears. We were both in shock. I remember how tightly he hugged me and that I never wanted him to let me go, it was the happiest moment of my life outside of saying my vows to the man I love. I remember how he held my hand at our first ultrasound when we got to see our baby’s heart beating away… again there was our future… beating away on the screen before us. And week after week has come and gone. Now we have a finish line in sight and a brand new door to walk through. I can’t wait to see the look on his face when our son takes his first breath and it finally hits us that we are someone’s mommy and daddy and that our journey to making a baby has turned into a lifetime journey of parenthood. I can’t wait to meet my son… my future… the next love of my life.