Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Week 34: Negative FFN, pondering the future, and maternity pics!

So good news, our FFN test came back negative! Cheers from the docs, we WILL keep this guy cooking for 2 more weeks.

We decided to celebrate by having a weekend alone, probably our last getaway before the little guy arrives. We headed up to the mountains where the weather was beautiful and most importantly we were able to relax, eat, and snuggle on the couch with movies. It’s kind of a bittersweet feeling at this point, I am sad that this “just us time” is coming to an end…. It will no longer be the two of us but the three of us. I almost feel like you go through the stages of grief when this finally occurs to you because it really is a “loss”, it’s the end of one chapter of your life. Now obviously it is the beginning of the next amazing phase of life and I am beyond overjoyed at the thought of it, but I will definitely admit that I’m clinging to these last days where hubby and I can be just the two of us. And with that there are so many things that I find myself thinking, “this is the last time I’ll do this” or “this is the last time I’ll do this without a baby.” It really starts hitting you just how different life is about to be. It’s a complete flood of emotions… and usually what follows these thoughts are more thoughts of “am I going to be able to do this?” “am I going to be a good mom” It’s no joke this parenting thing and I’m overflowing with happiness and anxiety at the same time. I guess the pregnancy process has a way of preparing you for what’s ahead, the worry, the joy, the unknown, the pain, the wonder, the chaos, the laughter…

On a lighter note, we had the pleasure of doing our maternity photoshoot this week. The pictures are amazing, I couldn’t have asked for a better keepsake. A great family friend just so happens to be an amazing photographer and happened to be in town so we were lucky enough to capture this surreal moment in time with her lens. The weather held out for us and the photos are truly beautiful. I can’t wait to hang some in the nursery to remind of me of how our little guy got here.

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